someone please tell me what I should do.

A close "friend" of mine did something that hurt me so bad, all along I thought that she was one of my bestest friend in the whole world and was almost like a sister to me. I loved her so much, I complimented her so much that it was second nature, I told her everything about anyone. but all along I was just one of her minions. I don't think she cares about me. behind that all-knowing gentle thoughtless smile lies a lying, manipulative monster whose ruining my life.

she lies, to make herself look good. she lies to please boys to make them like her.

she makes me seem stupid, she made me feel stupid.

everything she says are lies. nothing but lies. you never watched that show, you never played that game before in your whole life, I never said those words, I didn't yell at you, I never spread rumours about you I NEVER said anything about our other friend.

because of her, I almost lost my best friend. I lost 2 months of extension classes. I missed opportunities. I feel like my life is just gonna go downhill.

we are seniors in high school. she started a fake rumor about me. I was confused. I was scared. I apologised to my friend about a thousand times. I wish I died. my worst nightmare, of being rejected by everyone I loved happened. my grandmother died, my parents were getting divorced and then, suddenly my best friend started ignoring me.

I broke down, I felt alone. I felt like the whole world was against me.

I trusted her, she was the only one I could rely on. that's what I thought. everything was a blur... but I cried to her, I yearned for her to help me. I helped her countless times, I treated her like she was the perfect best friend I always knew. the one I protected, the one I looked up to, the one who boys would make up excuses just to see.

I never cared when she made the guys our friends, and I liked. like her. I never said anything when she'd talk about everyone. I never said anything when she would talk about me.

I trusted her so much. because I thought she'd repay everything I'd done for her. I thought that If I was a caring friend. she'd love me back. the truth is. she never once liked me. she hates my guts, the way she looks at me is disgusting. her fake smile, her crocodile tears. I should've seen she was jealous of how close our other friend was to me. I should've known when she'd make everything about her. any tiny comment was about her. just a boy looking our way was for her.

I cried infront of her, I told her how I felt. I feel so betrayed. because she didn't bother doing anything when I asked her, when I begged her a thousand times. I wish I never helped her all those times she'd argue with our friends. I wish I was never there whenever she broke down BECAUSE TRUST ME SHE BROKE DOWN A LOT. she's a manipulator. once you think you're close to her. you'll try anything just to gain her favour. you won't see it coming. but it's happening. she'll make you go mad.

when I broke down. for two months I didn't go to school. she pretended like nothing happened and moved on with life, continuously being praised by everyone.

I am behind school. I don't know what to do, I feel like giving up. my biggest mistake in life was befriending her.