My Unsent Letter

They say it’s better to love and lost then never loved at all but tell me how do I sleep when every night I think of you? When I dream I see your face, those beautiful eyes looking right through me like they always do. It’s been years and lord knows I’ve tried to love others but I always find myself comparing them to you because all I was is you. You disappeared for a year, out of no where but I still haven’t let go of you. When you came back my world lit up but it’s not the same. You’re not mine now, we don’t even have real conversations but you still ask me to call you. I want to, so bad I want to hear that voice again but why can’t I bring myself to do it, just pick up the phone. I know it won’t fix things or bring you back but at least id be able to hear you. I want so bad to tell you how much I still love you but Ik you don’t want that pressure and Ik you have a lot going on so here I am, where Ik you’ll never read it. I’d give you my heart but you’ve always had it, I never knew I could love anything this much and still it means nothing. I pray for you, for your family. I know you’re gone now, but I hope everything starts getting better for you. I hope you find love like I have for you.