Anorexia

I sat in the bath maybe for 20 minutes crying, clothes on everything, the cold water makes me feel again, I came out and got naked and looked in the mirror, how can anyone say I’m beautiful and I look like that, that person isn’t me, my mind was completely blank but I still cried and cried, until I couldn’t cry any more, I got on my knees and laid there for a while and untimely my vision became blurry and I could no longer see anything, my breath was the only thing I could hear, exhaling quickly and inhaling gasping for air and I drowned in my own tears, I am disgusting, ugly, just so unappealing I could no longer see my beauty and my face turned red and I hit the right part of my head, I have no idea where I picked up that habit from but I did it, on quick bash with my knuckle made me cry even more but I couldn’t stop. I no longer felt like I was me, the person I saw in that mirror wasn’t me, I pray I am not her.