Afraid to do good for me

Ain't that something? What a concept, amirite? I knew about the gamestop stock, I knew about bitcoin way back when it was still in it's infancy, I know about dogecoin and how it recently spiked. I could've bought it not too long ago for something like .2 cents per coin. Now it's something like 10 cents a coin. Why do I do this? Some fear of success I suppose and some fear of failure as well. I had a dream just moments ago where I did invest and I went belly up as to be expected. Hadn't thought about any of this prior to going to sleep, but the dream was pretty vivid and it got me wondering, I could've probably been a millionaire had I did what I knew to do. Back when Trump was in office, all you had to do was wait on him to tweet something stupid and watch stocks plummet and then within a week, they'd shoot back up. I was aware of that trend very early on. I thought about investing, but I decided I didn't want to. I could easily be bathing in cash had I chose a different route. Of course you put me in any situation where I stand to gain a lot of money and I'm the first one to opt out, always. I don't even understand why! I'd love to have millions of dollars! I wouldn't use it excessively, just some really simple stuff. But still, seems that has been something that has always happened in life. I gain knowledge that could get me tons of cash, and choose not to act.