done with the weight of anger...

i had some bad stuff happen to me because of this one person.. my mother..

when i was younger she was great.. if only i knew she was a ticking time-bomb..

i had a fear of sleeping because she told my that monsters would invade the house and are dreams as we slept..

she acted like she knew everything and that she was the center of everything.. starting problems so she could solve them..

she divorced my dad who ended up finding love.. and she ruined it for him..

she told me (who was only 11 at the time) the horrible.. HORRIBLE things that happened to her.. and all of her feelings/crushes.. she broke the hearts of 4 men..

she made me take care of my siblings.. she made my think i had something to prove..she caused my to live in my head and feel that 'love' was a very strong word... i would never say love..she messed me up to the point that one day i lost all emotions for 3 hours... she hurt and broke so-so-so many people...

then she left us all for a man with more money..

i have a great life but i have been living it in anger for something that is now far away...

Lara.. you destroyed me.. you hurt me.. you are a horrible being who i hate to call human..you played so many people and yet...

i dont want to repeat a cycle that has been going on for a long time.. and i dont want to live a life of anger...

so...

i forgive you.. you sick woman..

you are mentally unstable.. you have little control over yourself... you megalomaniac..

i forgive you... but i will never love you..

... im getting rid of the weight of anger and flying to higher place's

-readytoforgive