Friendship

Was it really that?

It's amazing how "friends" can just fade out after knowing them for a few years

That's the difference for me

Casual friends fade

The close ones stay

Ah, it's bittersweet because it was getting painful to be around them

But also suddenly people who have been in my life for a while have vanished

It's definitely for the best

When toxic behaviors become a pattern in friends, it's just stress waiting to destroy

Sure the family had good qualities

But they constantly were crossing lines

Lines that most would understand not to cross

And they felt no shame

They don't apologize

I know people aren't perfect, but this wasn't a one time thing like I thought it'd be

They were rude to the point that you just expect it eventually

Prideful and didn't care to listen

Closed minded to a fault thinking no one else could ever be right

Or that all problems could only have one solution

And for crying out loud

I dealt with a lot because I want to be slow to wrath

Patient,

and I believe people make mistakes and can have second chances

But, I think God has closed a door between these friendships

And when I type friendship, I feel hallow

They latched on to me and my sister and wouldn't make new friends

It kinda felt like an obsession to a degree

And three of them liked me, like liked me I mean

At points I just felt uncomfortable because the way they treated me like I was just going to marry one of them, when I've liked none of them like that!

And one of them did that to my older sister

Moved on to me when he realized she wasn't into him

Thank God he overheard me saying I don't want to get married until 25

I'm sorry, I'm ranting a little

I didn't mean for this to be so long

But, I've felt used by these people

And stepping back, I see it even clearer

The situation has definitely taught me to be even more careful of who I call a

Good friend

When you start noticing that people you don't know as well treat you better than

Your good friends

Leave!

Run for your life because otherwise it will be sucked away before you know it

I think I put up with them a bit longer than I should have

Actions have consequences

Since they are going to keep carelessly hurting me and my sister

And I even just saw them hurt many people a few weeks ago because of their thoughtlessness

I think I will forever cut myself further from their family

Until there's no strings left to cut

The relationships between me and them fading is beautiful in a way

It's a relief

A fading like the sunset