why can't i be normal

confused. uncertain. lost. that's me. or maybe just my mind. still it it's like a rollercoaster. it's like running for miles and just feeling tired like u cut ur limits. not physically but mentally. one day all seems pointless the other day you just live in the day and don't care. it drives me crazy and i feel so desperate. sometimes i see hope, sometimes not. and like all the others here i don't know what to do, but i know it'll be better. one day. i hope this day comes soon...