Dreams on 2018-2019

I am a Christian and I believe in God. Especially before. Yes, I admit I'm lost right now but this narrative isn't about my faith right now. It's about my dream I think it was 2018.

The first dream that I want to share was about me dressed as a nun. I was walking and was given a task to go somewhere. It's kinda hard to remember why but all I can really remember was that I had a task/mission to go somewhere. I'm not really sure where I was to go but anyway I had a mission. My parents and I think a priest were trying to stop me but I was persistent. I even sang Christian song out loud while I was being stopped and I was not stopped by them at all. Then I met this guy in pure white clothes like a white toga with white blindfold and his hair was yellow. It wasn't blonde but yellow. I can't explain what kind of yellow it is but yeah it is yellow. His hair was up to I think his shoulder or just a little shorter than that. Anyway I met this guy whose name I don't know. All I know is that this guy was to lead me to where I have to go. We were in the middle of the road of the town and the road wasn't cemented but rather it was dusty. We were on the right side of the road (based on where we are facing) and on the other side was this guy whose face I couldn't see at all. Not even his chin. He was wearing a very black raincoat or hood. All I see on the hole of the hood where his face was supposed to be was shadow/black. While I and that guy in pure white clothes and blindfold was walking, that guy in black raincoat was staring at us but not making a sound. I mean I couldn't see his face or eyes but I know he was watching us as we walk on the other side of the road. Eventually I and that guy in white blindfold came upon a ripe cornfield and we kept walking through it and I was just following that guy until I think I found this round concrete building. Maybe I should call it a concrete dome. And there I found a woman and her young daughter. I think they were crying and then I woke up.

Another dream I had was on December of 2019. I was in the house of my sister and I was sleeping on the couch that evening. I dreamed that I was back at our home. Then I saw on the east, this black thick smoke (it's not hurricane but a huge dome of smoke) over the east. It's really black that when I look at it I can't see the east side of our town. Now that I think about it, I was standing on the yard of our home but I can see the east side of our town being blanketed/swallowed by that thick black smoke like I was in an elevated place. Anyway, I saw that smoke so I told my mother, brother, and auntie who were with me in the yard to go inside our home and we closed the doors and windows. Then we went on the 2nd floor of our house and we opened our window a little to see what's going on outside and then the black smoke blanketed over our home. Then I became a light and I flew to the sky in a super fast speed that within seconds I was on the outer space. And I heard people shouting about the Lord is coming. I was afraid because I was not ready. I wasn't just afraid, I was terrified. And I saw this island (?) that was floating toward us. It was colored brown and I can't really remember what was there anymore. Then I woke up all sweaty and I felt my body so hot.

I'm not saying that this is prophetic or anything because in the first place I am not a prophet. I'm just sharing this past dreams that I had and just found it somehow important and somehow relevant to what's happening right now.

Ah, Lord I pray that I come back to You. I'm really lost right now and filled with doubts and anger. But even like this, I pray that You lead me home, back to You again. Amen