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It’s the first time I’m here not knowing what to say. I’m just staring at my screen. I feel sad, depressed, angry at myself, suicidal, alone, unhappy, useless, selfish because of my thoughts… I feel like suicide would be the best option for me. I’m not saying the world would be a better place and feeling sorry for myself. I know people love me and it would destroy them. But, at what point do we stop thinking about others and start thinking about what’s good for ourselves? It’s going to make me, only me, get out of this stressful, ugly life I’m living. I wish it wouldn’t affect others… My mom… She’ll not be able to take it. I’m really sorry mom. I really am. You’ve done everything right. I’m sorry. And dad, you’ve been with me and never against me for all my life. I’m sorry to you too. And to my brother, I’m sorry that I never let you know that I do love you. I’m sorry to my friends, my girlfriend and all the people that go through worse things than me and actually fight. But I’m done. At least, I think I’m done… I can’t keep fighting. I’m tired. The constant battle with myself… It’s tiring.
I’m sorry
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hi, know tht whatever is going on will end some day! it might seem like it wont. but if you win this battle you will see it was! you are loved, u rlly are and although you are a stranger i love you. you can do this. tho it looks impossible you can!! you are an amazing human being and you are far from selfish! life is hard. and its a constant battles. but you can do this i promise. please hold on a lil longer!
ReplyPlease don’t destroy your family. It will destroy them. My brother destroyed me that way. Please don’t do it to them. You are loved. And you love them too much to do that to them.
ReplyIf this was your note you'll never see this but if you're alive..
I've tried killing myself twice, both times bodily instinct saved my life but I really did want to die. I know the main concern always feels like family and maby friends but it should always be you.
My last attempt was two and a half years ago, I cried straight after because it hit me that that would be it. Gone. People like me who don't fit in work so hard every day to act like our smiles are real and our laughs ate genuine but we know their noy but I do smile sometimes. I have two people in my life who make me feel full inside and the more I think about them the less I can do it. Not for their, sake but for mine. Never seeing them again makes my stomach churn, I don't ever want to leave them.
I am a firm believer everyone has someone like this but we don't all meet them as conveniently as I did, imagine if you were never with the person you couldn't leave.
Be selfish. Stay and meet them, I promise you it's worth it
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