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I miss you, french girl... #Barcelona 22/03/2015
7 years ago · 6 · French girl in Barcelona, +3 · Explicit
2006
Date: 22/03/2015
Place: Barcelona, Spain.
I was at a school trip with my class in Barcelona in March 2015. We were in FC Barcelona's stadium museum to check out their facilities and such. Our teachers allowed us to check our for around 30 min before we were gonna meet up to go inside the football stadium.
I hung around alone, just looking around the football cups in the museum. Suddenly, while reading a text on the wall, I noticed this brown haired pretty, cute and adorable girl just next to me staring at me. At first I thought I had something on my face or something, but nope. She kept staring at me so I said "uhm sorry?", but no reply. She kept staring at me with her cute smile for some reason, so I just slowly walked away.
She came again after 1 min doing the same thing; staring at me with a cute smile. I got a tiny tiny bit annoyed because she didn't tell me the reason for why she was staring at me. I asked her "uhm is something wrong? *looking around while confused*"... she shook her head. Then she finally spoke. She said "where are you from?" I said "I'm from Denmark, where are you from?", "I'm from France." she said with her cute smile.
Worst part happened; I slowly left after our short conversation. I DIDN'T ASK FOR HER NAME OR FACEBOOK OR TWITTER OR NUMBER OR WHATEVER... I'm such a DUMBASS... I hate my life since that day... I've never had a real decent connection with girls because of my weak personality. I'm very shy around girls, I don't know what to do around them. Anyway... I regretted what I did and started finding her all over the museum. Was so hard because the museum was huge so I stopped at the TV screens where there was a football match going on. I rested a little there and then suddenly I looked to my left and I saw her... with her female class mates... talking to each other cute, but quietly. I got stressed, I wanted to approach her, but I was shy... very shy and stressed so I stayed where I was hoping they would come to me. Must be God's gift to me; they came with the girl in front. She came close to my ear and said "you're beautiful" and cutely ran away with her female friends in a quiet way. That was the moment I realized; she actually loves me (or at least has feelings for me).
I began finding her around. I found her after around 10-15 minutes with her classmates (she was also in a school trip with her class) at the bridge-like thing that connects the FC Barcelona shop and museum together. I tried to approach her yet again, but I didn't have the guts to do it so I tried getting in eye contact with her from a distance of around 10 meters, didn't work... They slowly moved down to the exit in between all the other people/visitors. I felt like I had to go find her...
After trying to find her around 4-5 times around (around 15 min) this huge museum I finally find her outside the shop/the exit with her classmates getting ready to leave. I saw her there around 10 meters away standing alone... I looked at her and looked and her and looked at her hoping she would notice me, and she did! We had eye contact for a little while.... omg her stare with those eyes and that cute smile... unreal... not from this world... I had never been this much in love before in my life... everything was perfect... until this happened; they all (her classmates) took their bags and started moving down to the parking lot for their bus... It was that moment I realized I hated my life to every single piece of tiny bits... I said to myself "NO... don't leave...!!!"... I followed them from a distance to their bus down the parking lot. They got in, drove by and I fucking wanted to commit suicide... (I also missed the chance to get inside their stadium because I was trying to find her, but I literally don't give a fuck about the stadium... just a side note...)
Worst day of my life... the whole point of this is:
- to hope she somehow sees this
- to remind me how a fucking moron I am and that I hate myself, and last but not least
- to remind myself how my life is in ruins since then...
Please... JUST PLEASE notice me babe... I know you are out there... I want you back... I'm coming to Paris in 2017 with my class... I hope to see you there somehow... I just hope...
I miss you... so fucking much...
If you see this post, add me on facebook: Tazir Soykirim
And a favor to you guys reading this; please share it as much as you can.. I'm begging you. Especially to your French friends... she might be your friend...
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Omg *.* such a beautiful story ♥ I hope that u could find this girl . and please don t give up on finding her .
ReplyThank you, dear. Of course I won't give up... and I'm surprised you actually care about it because my friends seem to think I should forget her and move on... which I won't...
Replyi hope you find your french girl, i really do. i want you to know that even if you aren't able to find her, you are making your very best effort to find her and that is worth a lot. it is true that sometimes we hesitate, don't act in the moment and so it may be lost forever. if it is true, then you must let yourself off of the hook and learn the lesson so that you do not repeat it. perhaps there is another beauty in the wings of your life, and because of the Barcelona incident, you will NOT make the same mistake again. keep trying. you are awesome for trying. there is no failing bcz as long as you try, you are awesome. good luck
ReplyI tried earlier to like other girls, but it just doesnt work... i cant forget her... whenever i try liking other girls, i always remember her... but i guess you are right; "there is no failing bcz as long as you try, you are awesome."
ReplyEven if all the world told u to forget about her don t please , it s hard to find true love . But if u were lucky enough u will . I mean she could be ur soulmate , I know how people feel when they miss someone so bad and specially if this one was gone and never coming back , but u have a chance . And i hope that u could find her .
And if u couldn t find her on this trip . Travel to france . Do no matter what it takes to be with her . I know it sounds crazy but if u really do love her u will do everything to find her again . But i m afraid what if it too late now . Whatever don t give up . Best luck for u
Replythank you
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