Sincerely Yours

I’m sorry that sometimes I can be selfish. I’m sorry that I can be passive aggressive. I don’t want to fight, but if we have to, can we at least fight together? I don’t need to sit here and tell you how much I love you, you know. I’m sorry that I have aided in making this a mess. I’m sorry that no matter what I say, We can’t make this right. I wish I was awake that morning to hear your anger and express mine. Your thoughts and feelings matter to me and I’m just as angry as you. I would never control you. I want you to be the free spirit I know you to be. I realize now that I can come off that way and I can’t say “sorry” for that, it isn’t enough. I’ve been controlled my entire life, I would never want to make someone else feel that way. I’m sorry I drove you crazy. I’m sorry that I get jealous and it’s not fair to you. I’m sorry I disregarded your friend's death.I’m sorry that your dad’s anniversary is coming up and I can’t be there for you to have a drink or two and help take the pain away,kiss the pain away, or just sit in silence together. Just be there for you, in silence and hold you.. I understand you want to be alone right now to work on yourself and maybe one day we can make this right. If not, know how badly I wanted it to. Even after everything, I will always want you and maybe that’s not enough. But that’s ok. I’ve accepted the way things are now and these messages probably make you hate me even more, lol. But I get it. I just wish more than anything that we could make this right. Together. Like we were supposed to be forever. You have all of my love. Even if you don’t want it, it’s there for you. So with our parting, please remember the good, for you deserve to remember the good. You deserve to be happy even if it’s not with me. I mean that. I’m sorry. For everything.

Sincerely Yours