My Unsent Letter

To the coward:

I loved you, I really did. But I meant absolutely nothing to you. For years I tried to do something, anything with you. The last time I asked you to be my date to a wedding. We knew each other for 3 years at that point. It was a year in advance, and you wouldn’t even consider it. You just said “no.” At that very moment, I detached from you. I convinced myself I was an idiot for even thinking about loving you even if we were friends.

The last night I saw you, you made sure that I knew how worthless I was to you. After you coerced me into letting someone else join, I vowed to never see or speak to you again. I repeatedly said “no” and should have left instead of being assaulted by you and God knows who that other person was. Any good memories I had with you were overridden that night by being forced to do something I never wanted to do.

I said anything and everything I could to make you go away. It worked. I haven’t seen you since in at least 10 years and you are too chicken 💩 to say anything to my face even if you did. No surprise there!