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I’m so pathetic I hate myself. Why do I feel like this. Everything is meaningless. I want to cry and scream but nothing will come out. I have a huge hole in my chest and I can’t breathe. I feel like I’m losing myself. Faking my happiness constantly. Night comes around and all I can think about his her. The girl who is putting this all on me. Who won’t even reach out to me. The one who I love more than anything. I just want to be here friend again. She is part of me. I hate that I feel like I need her. I am not strong enough on my own. I am not strong enough to be my own person. All my old insecurities are coming back. I hate myself. My body. My face. My personality. I’m so bland. It’s pathetic that I have gotten most of my confidence from her. You couldn’t find it on your own? Why are you so weak? You’re not that fat why do you feel like you are or when you look in the mirror just see imperfections? I wish I new. Others don’t see you that way and compliment you and tell you your wrong if you tell them how you feel about yourself. So why doesn’t it help when others try to help your confidence? Why is it only her? It makes no sense. I am helplessly in love with a girl with a boyfriend. I helped her cheat. You’re trash and pathetic. Yes she may have started everything but you thought about the outcomes why did you give in? Oh cuz you finally found out how you feel about her and no one else in this world. You helped her cheat that is terrible. But how could you say no to the one you love the most. When she asked what would happen if she kissed you how could you refuse. Why didn’t you realize how you felt about her sooner. You had all the time in the world when she was single and even all over you. Or then again just have not gave in. You’re weak. If you would have just been stronger. Thought about the outcome more. And see that it was not worth the risk of losing her. I have no one to tell how you feel. I am constantly listening to other’s helping them while I am dying on the inside. Why is this all falling apart because of one person? What am I even doing with your life? I have constant intrusive thoughts that run through my head while alone. Wishing that someone would end my life for me because I’m to weak and scared to do it myself. If I was gone would she then see how badly she is treating me and how bad I feel because of her? How she is even lucky that I am trying so hard to reach out to her and fix things? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe she would just forget about me completely and move on with her life.
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i feel you. sick to my stomach and nausea all night. i'm scared to lose him because of the holiday, wondering if anyone but me is going to be lucky enough to be with him, and feeling like a fool because all he does is pull away.
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