My Unsent Letter

I am remembering the night we spent in the hotel - the first night we were together intimately. I am remembering how scared and nervous we both were, but I also remember feeling a complete comfort around you at the same time. When you kissed me in the chair, my whole world stood still.

How is that a touch can be so powerful? I wanted you so much, but not just sexually. You had to have felt that familiar energy charge between us too, but I wonder if you would have admitted to it. That first night at the sea wall... I never wanted you to let me go. And now... I still don't want that, even after everything we have been through.

I don't belong in any else's arms. I don't want to be in anyone else's arms. I don't want my body to belong to anyone else but you. You know the truth deep down, even if you can't admit it to yourself. This separation from you is so maddening, and it hurts me more than I can express with insufficient words.

I wish the man who loved me would come back to me. Is he still there? Does he still want me? Reach out to me. I am here for you. I have always been here for you. I am yours. I will always be yours. But it has to be on your terms and not mine. Just find me again.... please!