My Unsent Letter

Dear _____,

how could you do this? how could you sit there and tell me repeatedly how much you cared about me. was it really all a lie? did she really manipulate you that fast to going back to her? I don't understand why I wasn't good enough. I did everything you asked, I was there, every night that you begged me to come over I came. you fed me so many lies, you acted like you were literally love stuck by me. you had me so fooled that I finally had a boy that genuinely cared about me. I SAW the way you looked at me, how did you fake that?? the way we'd laugh together, the way you couldn't stop saying how much you cared about me, the way you cuddled me. and on top of everything no one around me liked you, I stood up for you. i told everyone that no one saw what I did in you. and now I look like a literal idiot. they were all correct, you were nothing but toxic and manipulative. but yet I still care so much about you. I don't understand why. all I was to you, was the backup when things went sideways with her. I didn't wanna believe it at first. but that's all I really was. I genuinly cared so much for you and was prepared to give you the world but instead you stepped on me and walked away. god, you've hurt me so bad. you were right when you swiped up on my story that day. I am a fool.