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Why didn’t anyone tell me medical trauma is a thing?????
2 years ago · 1 · Trauma, +2 · Explicit
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I have multiple chronic health conditions, the most relevant one being that I was born with only semi-functional intestines. I have very vivid memories from when I was little of examinations and pain and enemas. So many enemas. People always say that they don’t hurt as long as you hold still…but try telling that to a six year old.
If I start thinking about them to much, I break down crying. I have literal nightmares about enemas. A few months ago, I had to get one for the first time in years. I was screaming and swearing and crying. And that was before it even went in.
It affects me on a day to day basis. I’ve never been able to commit to putting in a tampon because I freak out too much at the thought. I have a high libido, but might never have sex because I freak out to much at the thought of anything being in *that area*. I always felt really dumb about this. I didn’t know that I was suffering from literal effing trauma. Even after learning this, I’m still harder on myself than I should be…but I’m trying to do better.
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that's why doctors ask so many questions now, to reduce the trauma on a patients. i remember the first time i was ever asked if i was in pain. i was shocked. i had never been asked if i was in pain or uncomfortable.
here's the great thing about being an adult: you are in control of your own body. you can make the medical decisions for yourself. you can say no. (i must admit, sometimes i just say no for the sake of being able to say no.)
when you are a child, you usually don't have that option. i got lucky one time. for my last stint in the hospital, my doctor told me i could be included in the decisions for my health. for the first time in my life, they asked me questions! i'll never forget it that moment.
anyway- you are an adult now. you can say no. you have control.
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