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Hello uhm. I've decided to post some stuff here because I need to externalize...like...really. So I have an exam with a high coefficient tomorrow in history and I don't know my lessons at all. I mean, since the beginning of the year I haven't listened to what the teacher says since it's fucking boring. But now I'm just so screwed. I'm really feeling bad, down, whatever. If I get another bad grade I'm just gonna be so disappointed in myself and so will my mum. I feel like she's really sick of me, she thinks that I'm helpless and it really hurts me. I know I'm not the best but...idk... And I've thought about everything, every way out. I have to find a solution that doesn't mean disappointing my mom, and that is not a piece of cake believe me. Of all the things I've thought about the best idea is going to the hospital. But i need a VERY good reason for that. Like getting rolled over or having an OD or having a fracture. The best one would be the first. But it's not like I wanna end up in a wheelchair or something. And for an OD, whether it's with opioids or medicines they'd just think I'm suicidal, which I don't want them to find out. Or I could break one of my bones. But I mean..is it worth it? Breaking one of my bones just to not attend one single exam. And I tried getting my mind off of it by playing piano but i can't. It's just rewinding in my mind again and again. Should I study all night? Even that wouldn't be enough. I am naturally bad in history. So even if I did the best I could to learn, i wouldn't get a good grade. I'd honestly like some alcohol right now. To forget. I know it seems dumb as shit and that some people are really going through some hard stuff but I just had to say what's on my mind. Uhm so I'm still fucking clueless on what I'm gonna do. I just wanna talk to a real person right now. If you have a website for that please share.
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Well that's complicated. First of all don't think about harming yourself physically. It's not worth it. Just be honest with your mom before the exam and tell her you couldn't study for it and the grades would be disappointing. Tell her you'll study hard again and keep your word. Doing this is the best way to out of the prblm I think. She'll feel very hurt might not talk with you in worst case but at least she'll know the truth. Saying one truth can save yourself from hundred lies. Even if you go to hospital and all, your mom would get so anxious about it because of an emergency. It'll be tough for your mom to handle. Telling her truth and trying whatever you can do in one night, is the best thing now. Atleast something is better than absolutely nothing. Well that's what I thought. Please don't harm yourself, cheating is bad but if you still can't figure out what you should do, consider that. I tried helping in any way I could. And here's a website I know called "www.blahtherapy.com" it's an anonymous chat website. Be aware of creeps and weird people. Disconnect as soon as they ask unnecessary details of age and something like that. But sometimes there are helpful people too. Totally depends on fate. But in the end, decide on your own. Take care and good luck!
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