Uncertainty: 2 Many Questions

Why am i falling for this trap?  She dont give a fuck.  Is clear as day and her pretending (not showing) is making matters worst.  I am regretting giving her the option.  She's not going to change for me.  Then i am going to be depress and hurt once again. She's clueless and not know how to deal with me.  All this because i want to show and receive affection from someone i love deeply.   How can i not feel this way?  Why are my feelings getting hurt to the point I'll slash out on her and others?  Is her lack of emotions the reason? Is her lack of effort to make it work or cater to me the reason?   Does she even care or want to treat her man right?  Does she even know that a man needs attention as well?   Does she know me?   Does she care to know how i feel? Or will she stop loving me because she realize i am more complicated than what she needs?  Can i do us being one sided?  Should i shut up and not show my emotions as before?  Pretend and ignore so everything appears ok?  So many questions and here's my mind at work with jitters and a clutter of thoughts.  Is she going to give up on changing? Does she understand? Is she doing it for me and her?  What's on her mind? Is she thinking about the future?  Does she feel the same as me?  Why isn't she showing her feeling towards me?  Why is she refusing to speak and express herself?  Why does she think i am going to react in a negative way if i dont like what i hear?  Does she realize we need to understand one another. Even in disagreement and difference of opinions we must talk it out and understand that our (my) love is much stronger than that.

Why is this so hard for her to understand?   Maybe she has no love.  She has zero passion for me but not for mr. other.  I'm sure she embraced and loved the nervousness and excitement of being with the other guy.  Does she realize that isn't happening here since we are 23yrs together?  That's upsetting and terrifying to think that she needs that feeling that i cant give her. 

Will she always say that it's going to take time?  When i know is bs.  When love is present time doesn't exist.  Love prevails over anything. If she loves me then she should be able to change now.  She needs to treat me 100X better than the way she treated any other man.  But in my eyes she treats me the same or less than.  After seen the messages that she deleted and had is beyond upsetting.  I couldn't help to think two idiots texting and not understanding how badly they both fucking everything for stupidity or a quick exciting 30 minutes with someone new.  Why isn't she showing those feeling with me?  Why isn't she showing that passion with me? Why? I need to stop and be honest with myself. I already know why but damn.