Just my luck~

I’m gay and 30yrs old and I haven’t dated anybody since I was 22. I’ve been cheated on three times and the other guys I’ve gone on dates with within these years, I’ve attracted only curious men. So let’s just say my dating life is bleh.

But recently a relationship started with a friend I’ve known since march 2021 and we had our first hookup in early December. And now we started “dating.” Ive loved the friendship we had have before hooking up in December but now that more time has past, I’m liking him more and more. I think it’s the fact that I’ve been so deprived of affection and trust “issues” that I’m finally able to let my walls down and be happy with someone.

But just my luck, I’ve already planned on moving to another state on May 1st….. we just got approved for the house too….so what’s blossoming in my love life will soon fade and it makes me really sad. I dunno why I’m always so close to something yet so far. I dunno :/ I feel sad but I need to move to this other state for my mental being. Me and him both know the time is coming…I’m deciding to still be loving and caring till the day I leave. I don’t wanna make my last few moments with him awkward and fake that we are “just friends”…. I dunno. I just hope he will be ok when I leave and I hope he finds somebody too that can make him happy.