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I don’t know what to do with my life. I’m 14 and in ninth grade and when I think about growing up I freeze. I don’t know who I am. Soon I’m gonna be having to figure out what I wanna do with my life, who I wanna date, what job I want, where I’ll go to college, but I don’t even know what my interests are. I feel like I’m not a real person and I don’t deserve a story. I’m afraid I don’t have a real personality, all of my life has just been fabricating new identities for each person I meet so that maybe someone will like me. Although I feel like no one likes me anyways. I feel like I am the one friend that makes things awkward for everyone. maybe, there’s someone out there that could like me, but if they did it would just be because I’m manipulated them or they feel bad for me. I think about death a lot now these days, which just makes me want to die more because I know my problems aren’t anywhere near as bad as anyone else’s. I don’t have abusive parents, a toxic ex, sexual trauma, honestly the only kind of “trauma” I would say I have is talking people on a suicide on discord the age of 11, which is kinda messed up but whatever. I have always helped people. I’ve always felt the need to help people. If I don’t help people, I don’t have a purpose I feel like. I exist only for other people. I don’t know who I am.
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Your not alone. As cheesy as that is to say. You feel like your always there for others even though when you express yourself they never listen. Your lost and you change your personality and act for people you know will back stab you in the end. Finding yourself isnt easy. Nor is it skipping through sunshine and lollipops. In someways you remind me a lot of myself. Although there not much I can say I will say this. Personality is formed off of who you surround yourself with, you decide who those people are. Therefor one day I know you will be able to choose your personality not change it for someone less than you.
ReplyIt’s not cheesy, and thank you so much
Replyyou probably do know what you are like, even if other people don't. or at least you will know if you dig a little deeper. find stuff you like to do. what interests you? what excites you? don't worry about your career or even your major, you have loads of time to decide on those. getting to know yourself never ends but that's the best part about it!
ReplyI relate to you so hard. I'm a few years older than you and have always felt like the side character. For years, I have always supported others and have never felt the same reciprocation back until I met good people who saw me for me. I promise you there are people out there who can empathize with how you feel more than you think (like me). As for your personality, you are just beginning highschool and have the perfect opportunity to branch out and find things that interest you. Now is the time to put yourself out there and go to the meetings of clubs that interest you to find yourself. These clubs can also help you find like minded people that can further help you discover yourself.
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