Keeping tabs on me.

Disclaimer: This letter goes to someone who has been my lover, twin-flame stuff. Mostly chasing and running dynamic.

Hey, if you still have my number don't be scared to drop me a message. When you first tried approaching me I wasn't ready. Recovering from the sour ending we had.

I have a strange feeling that you might be wanting to talk again. Maybe rekindle things. I can't say it for you. I don't mention it 'cause I'm not sure of how you'll react. You tend to be explosive or indifferent. And dealing with your aggressive communication again won't do any better.

It stressed both of us. Mutually destructive. You hated doing it and I didn't mean to bother. I stood for myself and put my boundaries out there. It was unfair how I was treated. And for free, without giving you actual reasons.

Maybe one day you'll come clean and tell me. Why do you act like that, why the sudden flirting when you were on the verge of breaking up with your girlfriend, online dating doesn't attend to your needs? I thought you had something for real with her. Like, such as meeting in person and asking out. It is a hard time for you to be nice? You're scared of other people talking about it? But sometimes you show off, dear. You could always keep things a secret. Unless you wanted to get rid of somebody.

I never had hard feelings towards you. I've let you know so many times whenever you did or said something hurtful. Remember that day I went silent for three days? What did I tell you? I wanted some space 'cause you were no good for me. Yeah, right from the start and it went downfall. We needed six months to give it a try when you made a move, calling me out. Again chaos was ensured. We realized we were better off not talking at all.

Three months later, here we go. I didn't give the attention you wanted. 'Cause mostly, you'd try to get a reaction from me. A bad one. You do it on purpose.

So, come clean this time. Don't play games anymore. Don't gaslight. Don't act like you don't know what you feel about me. Come to me healthy, not with parasite intentions, drain me until I'm broken.

I only ask for this.

Clean.

Honest.

Sincere.