Memory I can’t forget but trying to get rid of

When I was in year 11 age 15 .

I was crying because I didn’t want to go into school. I have alopecia, didn’t want to wear my wig because it was getting uncomfortable and it was beginning to dry out after having it for 3 months. I could only afford the fibre wigs and not real hair ones ( I only get a new one every 6 months on the nhs as a prescription reduced cost but I often have to pay the full price for another one in between this because they dry out so quickly even with care) I didn’t have the confidence at the time to go out without it on so I could not see another way out. So I got upset because I felt I was edged into a situation where there was no choice for me . I felt pressured to go when I felt really uncomfortable and I was lacking confidence. I was kneeling on the floor gathering my books together whilst I was crying and putting them in my bag when my dad came running down the stairs. He pushed me by the shoulder very hard and I fell to the ground under the stairs. I went face down but caught myself . I rolled over onto my back and he knelt down and grabbed me by the throat and he was leaning in on top of me and shaking my throat. The back of my head was Hitting the floor again and again. I told him to get off of me and he got in my face with his hands still on my neck and he shouted repetitively whilst shaking me “why are you crying !, why won’t you stop crying! “ I kept asking him to get off of me quite loudly. I could see my mum in the kitchen behind his head just watching us . At that moment I was trying to understand why she would not do anything to stop it. His hands were getting tighter as I kept asking him to get off of me and to leave me alone. In the end I had no choice but to kick him in the groin very hard and he made a sound as though it hurt him , then he let go of me to grab his groin. I saw this as my opportunity to get away , I pushed him to the side and I got up . Told them I hated them both and ran upstairs to my room where I stayed all day.