I knew it was getting bad again

I knew it was getting bad again when I noticed I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning

When I was having troubles getting dressed

When I didn’t shower unless it was necessary

When there was laundry piled up on the floor for weeks because I couldn’t find the motivation to do it

I knew it was getting bad again when I started having troubles eating

When I noticed my hair falling out whenever I took a shower

When my ribs peaked out from my stomach

When I felt sick whenever I ate two meals a day because it became so rare

I knew it was getting bad again when I found myself in the bathroom with a razor

When I couldn’t sleep without thinking about what would happen next

When I only ever reached out after weeks because no one reached out first

When I found myself sitting on the floor crying for the third time that day

I knew it was getting bad again when I’d spent more time in my room than with friends

When I found myself with new people every week

When I would go days without talking to anyone

When I found myself with that fake smile everyday

I knew it was getting bad again

It’s just nobody bothered to help

And I was tired of worrying them