Thoughts/rant

Speaking on the subject dad is very discouraging. The dumb son of a b. The first words I hear him utter is ah fuck you then. So I get up I can't even eat because he's in there smoking out his fuckin mind again. So after I'm finally able to fix me something to eat near 30 mins lateri hear him slip into mom's room shutting the door. Its by my room so I hear alot of it. Even she calls him a son of a b. He goes DON'T CALL ME A S O B. He's threatening taking the car again tohis dealers for drugs despite his illegality to drive without a license. I'm like like hell he will. I've hidden one set. That's how drunk unruly belligerent n stupid he gets yeah he is a s o b. For acting this way. I'm talking to mom he immediately starts mocking me like a little school kid. I told mom divorce him throw him out get rid of the problem. She's had enough too. Just talking to her she's holding her hands out at me like saying stop. She don't want to hear no more. As if clanging change in there wasn't bad enough to probably wake me up this morning. You're a horrible human being dad. Like this you are. I just don't know. I told mom she needs to start locking her door. I do. I don't trust the mf as far as I can throw him especially after he threatened to kill me like 4 months ago. I wish hed receive what he's giving us. I could call him a bazillion cuss words. That's the thanks I get attempting to rebuild a bridge with an abuser who just tears it down by abusive behavior. He's just a crocodile.

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