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I work as an online English tutor. But I often get drained from social interactions easily. I've always been like this. So after one whole day of teaching 15-20 students one-on-one, I feel so drained. I'm not physically drained, it's just that I have little energy left to socialize and I need to recharge by being alone.
In my previous work (also an online teaching job) I shared a room with my family and when I'm working, my parents are in the room with me which is awkward and twice as draining. I got terminated after a year because I had a lot of cancelled lessons due to my anxiety kicking in before a class starts and like I said, I have zero energy left everyday.
I moved to a different company. I liked the students and now, I have a personal room to work because we moved to a different house. But this time, I live closer to my best friend's houses. I have 3 best friends and the 4 of us always hung out. Problem is, we hang out every weekend and that's fine with me. I enjoy going out after a tiring week. But thing is, sometimes one of them would have a bad day at work or have a personal problem and so, we meet during weekdays to comfort whoever needs comfort. We would talk until late at night and they would often sleep over at my place. My place is the usual hangout spot because my room is spacious enough. And I don't mind. I love them and I want them to feel like they're not alone when they are having a bad day or a bad week. But it happens almost every other day for a whole month.
Every morning, I feel so drained from the social interactions I have at night that I would literally cancel lessons because I can't bring myself to put up a smiling face in front of my students. This went on for two months and I ended up getting terminated again. It's not their fault. It's mine. But what is wrong with me? Am I lazy? I don't think I'm lazy because I worked 10-11 hours a day including saturdays for a whole month when I first moved back here and I did not mind. I had a lot of energy to work in fact. I know most people won't understand but how do I fix myself? I lose energy when there are other people so quickly even if they are people that I love.
I need to fix this because I want to be someone who is there for my family and friends. I love them and I want to help them when they need me. But I lose energy faster than most. I get drained when there are a lot of people. It's ridiculous.
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DON'T YOU EVER THINK You're LAZY! Having no energy out of the blue is very disturbing and not normal…. And if not… maybe it is just you, maybe you just feel tired of the world interacting with people… And I think you still love your friends and family dearly… And don't think that you love them less now. I hope your friends will be there for you now you're struggling in a very unknown reason. Have a break… Rewind yourself, explore, and discover… Maybe you need something new… Sad to hear about your job… But I hope everything will be better… Give yourself what ever it needs… The time, the rest… the time to just lie in bed and feel drained and sad. Then, when you feel better, stand up and work your life again. Hope my advice helps. You'll get yourself together soon. All the best, Darling.!
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