Hard to move on

I don't want to try anymore, I always fall for it. My insecurities tell me I'm being lied to. I feel sad again when we already been through this. I know what it implies to move on, it implies you will be happy again. But I'm sick of it, it's too hard and I don't enjoy the process. Plus it's getting to the point of frustration where if it keeps going and I don't solve my shit, I will fall for it again and only a new day will fix my problems. I'm sorry, I know our ancestors didn't have these tools. I'm selfish and hypocrite.