What I learned from AGE GAP relationship

I was 18 when I had a relationship with someone who's older than me.

We have an 11 years age gap. And we're both women.

My aunt and friends thought it was a bit concerning. But I was so naive, that I assured them it was fine.

It was my first ever relationship. So I did everything I could. I tried learning about her attachment styles, to learn about her, and her past, things she love, things that make her feel safe.

I did my best to provide her with a peace of mind always... and to assure her I'll always be there and will never leave.

But now that I look back at our relationship, I realized it was so one sided, and that everything that she did seemed fake. Every word she said seemed like a lie and I felt very used. I felt very used.

I was so naïve, overly trusting and inexperienced. There were so many red flags with her from the beginning, and I remember well how she told me she loved how innocent I am... and I thought that was a compliment...

Now that I'm 19, I learned a lot from it. I realized that the reason why she keeps dating way younger people because people in her age knows all the shit she do...

And she preys on younger, inexperienced people so that she could easily play games with them.

Til now it still hurt but I grew more wiser, more aware and I picked up the pieces of myself and believe I've always been better without her. I don't need someone who will invade my inner peace, and treat me like shit.

Why the hell would I allow her to treat me like shit when my father and mother treated me so well?

And I could relate so much to "Dear John by Taylor swift"

So yeah... it served as a lesson for me.