To the one I once loved

Hi Jaycee. I know you'll never see this. Here I am again... writing another unsent letter.

Ben&Ben released another song that reminded me of you. I didn't get a proper closure from you because you disappeared out of nowhere. You left. Namimiss kita. But I know na you're meant to be someone who will teach me something.

Let me tell you this, you taught me a lot within our short-lived hidden relationship. Siguro, casual relationship lang talaga gusto mo. Something temporary, something not serious.

Kaso iba kasi gusto ko, I wanted to be deep, to be serious and I invest in relationships that I want to last for a lifetime. Kaso siguro yun hindi natin nasabi sa isat isa. Maybe you weren't ready to commit either you're still hurt from the past or you're still in love with someone from the past

I got hurt so much, yes. Masakit siya. Kasi I took it seriously. I valued it and everything about it.

You were meant to be a lesson, a wreckage that will make me stronger.

So thank you. Thank you for teaching me what love is not.

Thank you for showing me what's not right.

Thank you for passing by. Mag iingat ka lagi. All I can do is consider you in my prayers. Yun lang. Hanggang dun lang kasi I accepted the fact naman na you wouldn't be able to love me back.

Maybe is it because I'm too young? Is it because of our age gap?

Thank you for teaching me a lot inside our 3 month relationship. I know you never mean it when you told me "I love you."

But I did. I meant every single word.

Masakit. Pero one day, I'll be okay.

I'll be completely okay with remembering what we had.

Mag ingat ka lagi. Always drink water. Wag ka na sana masyado uminom ng alcohol, I want you to take care of your health. Yun nalang siguro ibigay mo sakin, na make sure to take care of your wellbeing. And please, if you're planning to marry someone in the future, choose someone who will respect you, who will love you and pipiliin ka araw araw.

Yung hindi ka sasaktan. Yung hindi ka iiwan.

Please choose someone who will love you forever. I want you to be happy, the only thing I could do is to love you from afar.

Again... I know you won't be able to read this. And I know never ever you will see this one... pero if you ever do... that's great tho.

Thank you, Jaycee. Take care.

-- Maine.