I'm deeply in love with two women who will never love me back

I'm 17f, and have never truly had a crush before. I always thought it was strange that people in middle school and high school got madly obsessed with people they barely know, and I thought I was broken. I only had a few small "crushes" that lasted a week, and all it was was butterflys while I was around them and then I never thought of them outside of when I was around them.

I now understand why people describe love like how they do now. Two years ago I met a woman I will refer to as willow. We met when we had an 8 hour shift together at our underpaid haunted house gig, and started hanging out regularly. We became friends, a few months after that she introduced me to her best friend, Elise, whom she had known since they were tweens. Elise and I immediately clicked, our personalities were very similar, and I became close friends with the both of them.

Willow is straight. I had known that since about a week after I met her, and I never had any romantic intentions towards her. My stupid brain decided to fall deeply in love with her seven months after meeting her. We were already very cuddly with each other, so when I found feelings for her it felt like I was taking advantage of her, because she was under the impression that we were snuggling platonically. I was crying every other night because I just wanted things to go back to normal.

I felt really guilty, so about two months after I caught feelings for her I told her. She was not mad, or grossed out. She said that she didn't reciprocate (obviously lol she is straight) but she loved me a lot as a friend and we could still cuddle. She lets me pull up her shirt and trace her ribs and stomach and back, and she is so beautiful. I am glad to have her.

about two months after this happened, I fell in love with Elise. My feelings for Willow did not change. Elise and I get along well, but she cannot platonically touch anyone except for Willow when she gets really emotional, which is a rarity. She can't even hold hands. Romantically however is a different story.

She has been texting on the group chat for months about how she wants a woman to date and kiss. One day I asked "Why dont you date me?" and she said, because you will never be able to reciprocate, and I would be sad to loose you as a friend if something happened. she knew that I had never felt romantic attraction at first sight, and to be fair, even my feelings for her and Willow were different from how romantic feelings are usually described.

They are described as love at first sight, falling in love with someone as they get to know you. and feeling jealous when they talk to other people. I fell in love with Elise and Willow months after I got to know them. and I have also never understood why people only want one partner. Can you not love more than one person? Clearly I do. And I would be willing to only ever be in a relationship with Elise if it meant being with her. But it is clear she sees me as a friend, and wants it to stay that way.

Elise now has a crush on a woman she met a few weeks ago. she barely knows her. She really wants her to be her partner, and honestly I hope it works out. I don't have any jealousy towards Elise's crush, I just can't understand how she fell in love with someone before she even knew her.

Cam and Elise are extremely close, and they love each other so much. I wouldn't say I am jealous, again, I don't feel jealousy. What I feel when I see them together is extreme happeness to see the two women I love most in this world, and my best friends, be happy. But I also feel so sad that even though they are my best friends, I am not theirs. They are so much closer to each other, and I know I will never be that close to them. And I don't have an issue with that. It just makes me very sad.

once, during summer camp, Elise came over to Willow's bunk where we were snuggling, and joined us. This was very strange as Elise does not like platonic touching usually, but she was going through a very emotional time, and she trusted me enough to hold her and let me hold her hand. And I felt so happy, with Willow and Elise in my arms. I think about that a lot. I have been sobbing for the past hour because I know I will never have the relationship I want with them, but I am so happy and greatful that they are in my life and love me as a close friend. I wish I could just love them as friends. Elise doesn't snuggle, so I never felt guilty about not telling her. I don't know if I want to tell her. I appreciate honesty in relationships, so Im thinking about telling her, but I don't want her to think im trying to get in the way of her and her hopefully future partner.

What do yall think? Should I tell Elise? and do yall have any tips about getting rid of crushes? I know they are supposed to go away on their own, but it has been 17 months for Willow and 13 for elise, and they are even stronger then when they started. I just want to be able to enjoy and love them as my best friends without crying myself to sleep once a week.