Youth....

I never knew when I was younger, like ages 15-25, that those would be the best years of my life. And, as my life took a hard left and didn't go as I thought it would, all I do anymore is miss those days with my entire being. I'm in a place now that I don't know how to fix, and at 57 years old, I don't think there is time to fix it anyway. I contemplate leaving daily, but I have a dog and I don't know what would happen to her. She's done nothing wrong in this world and doesn't deserve to be abandoned or her life cut short just because I checked out. I had an impact on the world and knew many people, now I'm just mostly alone. I lie to cover my situation. I hate myself a little more every day. I wish i could reach out, or that someone noticed and wanted to hold me, if just for a little while. I'm just sad, depressed, alone and tired. Life isn't fun and hasn't been for years now. Help Please...... Someone...... Anyone...... Help.....