Late night thoughts

Im starting to think my parents are the most miserable people on earth. Day in day out this shift gets really old. The holidays it seems double probably how they are usually. Its been hell. Earlier dad goes to the dog "you're just as grumpy as I am'. At least he acknowledged it usually they both are in denial.

Im fairly irritated and angry because I was trying to play with dog and mom tries to make me stop. I tell her "its not a crime to play with the dog" . Sour bitterly she goes "yeah but im trying to get him to lay down". Depriving us both of joy. Also draining my joy and peace from me. Which occurs on a daily basis. Im so fed up of this bullsh!t. Their parents never out them though misery like this. But they weren't a drunken drug addict who don't learn their lesson like dad is. I've never saw such miserable people except a few from my past. If they need mental help I wish they'd seek it instead of projecting their misery on me and the dog. Gosh Im mad. Its so fu<king wrong what they are doing to me and putting me through.

Another grievance I have is they will tell the dog I love you but not me. its been years.

Also dad talks to my aunt and his drug dealer like honey and me like sh!t. Like im something that is a 2nd class citizen or something. Idk man but if things don't change idk. They are mentally ill I believe. That doesn't excuse sh!t treatment though. And it don't help being a black sheep in this area either being all alone even my aunt turning her back on me knowing what I've been through yet calls dad 2 days in a row because she has a lonliness complex despite having a bazillion acquaintances to call and I have 0. Wish she knew how that felt for her family and others to turn their back on her as she has me. My life's got to get better sometime. Sigh. ☹️😔😞😟😢😥🙁

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