The Grief

I don't know it's complicated. Sometimes I feel I expect too much from someone and they deliver nothing. they don't even try to meet the bar. they just fail the test intentionally & instead of apologizing they shout at you with their own stupid reasons .

Is expecting a birthday wish from closest of your friend too much?

Is expecting a status/story on social media too much(If they have not wished you till now )?

When you call them on your birthday even then they don't wish. I mean man seriously.

I called you to get ready for my birthday part which is just happening just after an hour & you don't even bother to wish me at all.

I mean seriously I don't know what to say. Now I feel the stupidest.

You know what I was about to cancel my party if you won't be there.

I would have not even thrown the party in the first place if things would have not been right between us.I think you are that close of a friend but in return I don't even get a birthday wish.

& then later after getting ready I get a wish just to be a formality,in a hurry.

"Oh Kamlesh, Happy Birthday,how can i forget sorry!"

& I reply"Thank you" trying to just thank as formally as I can.

It's not that you don't remember because you were invited to the party.you knew you have to go somewhere. is it a tedious task to wish the person first in whose birthday party you are going.

After this what does a person expect?

Maybe something from his close friend to compensate like behaving well,talking normally.But what do I get? more tantrums,more drama,more mistreatment,more misbehave. I mean that person specifically knows that It's my first birthday celebration. It's indeed special for me. But that person is misbehaving & mistreating me without even a second thought.

And then the final bomb blasts,ruining the most important part of a birthday party ,the cake cutting time.When I cut cake I expect my close friends to be close by ,so that they can eat it first.But even after saving a place for you & even after saying stand right here you run away making video with your phone.

ok ok I understand recording moments is necessary.ok. but not when two people are already doing it. But still ok ok ,mistakes happen.ok.

then I call you up for the cake cutting &eating for you turn & you say it's not important to eat the cake in front of everyone, to embaress me.

I don't know how should I react to this mistreatment.

& then you say the best friend comes at the last, hearing this I get relieved & say to my self atleast she's compenstating for it.But to my surprise what actually happens is that she makes me eat the cake,ok going well, but when it comes to eating it she says she'll eat it herself and starts eating by herself. If everyone is supposed to eat the cake by themselves then why do people blow candles & feed the birthday boy the cake in the beginning? why don't everyone just cut the cake directly into their plates & eat it.Madam I don't know how should I tell you that It's a matter of respect or celebration of birthday to eat cake & make birthday person eat the cake on his birthday.

This is probably the worst thing that can happen to a person on his birthday.

A person without whom he was thinking of not celebrating his birthday.

He was thinking if that friend doesn't arrive I'll cancel the party.

That same person doesn't even wish him properly.makes the party worse by disrespecting the birthday boy in front of everyone else even when they know how much they meant to me.

Is expecting a normal birthday,a normal birthday wish,a normal cake cutting ceremony from the closest of your friend bad?

Am I expecting something which is too much?

I don't know.

God you tell me.