Not My Trees

This is why I’m untouchable

In the trees I walked

All alone, but never really

I was one with every sound

Every species to come upon me

Every hum of the trees

Every glisten of the clear blue waters

Not even in the trees, was I ever alone

Always my refuge, my solstice

You, you’re just temporary

Yet another skeleton who has more skeletons than I want to think about

More reasons to hang your head than the last one

Me, I smile at even your failures

Because it really doesn’t matter

You’re a twig in an intricate woven tree

You will find your way regardless of my do or don’t

You don’t even have choices, you just think that you do

I’m selfish, I know this

I care about me and those lucky enough to come into my fold

I don’t care about people that hurt me and that’s you

The pain you’ve given me will fade

You’ve damaged parts of me and changed my whole pure happiness

You’ve shattered a part of me

But it always will be this small part

You are not stability like these grounds, my grounds

These grounds are not weak

The soft humming as I walk trying not to disturb the sanctity of a world that welcomes me

Here, I am a jewel that the earth waits on with pure eagerness and openness

It has seen my tears and mostly my joys

My trees, my beings, my warmth, this extension of me

You will never take this part of me

Never my trees, these are my trees, they are me