My sexuality is confusing, can someone help me understand?

So, I’m a man, and to some extent I am very much bisexual. I find men and women very attractive, in different ways but still. If I’m watching straight porn, I am aroused by both parties. And I have had sex with a woman before and very much enjoyed it.

However, as a man I do not want to have sex with other men. What I WANT to do is become a woman and then have sex with men, but I can’t. Like I find men very attractive but I want them to see me and treat me as a woman in bed, whereas with women I want to be the man (which I am).

Basically I’m very attracted to the idea of a straight relationship (nothing’s wrong with gay ones tho) and I want to be either the man or woman in that relationship, but can only be the man. There is no situation other than “sex with men” in which I want to become a woman, so I wouldn’t call myself trans either.

Can someone help me out? Can I still call myself bi?