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These are just my general feelings right now. I thought my life would've turned out better than this. Well having certain people making promises making things sound so good then them opposite didn't help me when it was supposedly supposed to help me.
Too many things were hidden from me and family sabotaged me in ways too. I was also led down a path I shouldn't have went and others knew better but juft let me go down it anyway. Sure I have the knowledge and experience from it now. But it was like walking through jungles and briar paths almost by yourself. Not pleasant so much. But family is supposed to have your back NOT HIDE THINGS , LIE TO YOU, USE, MANIPULATE AND ABUSE AND EVEN MOCK YOU for things. Whatever I can't control what was done and what I lived through. But had nobody interfered maybe my life would be better today.
But that's some of the problem too. times they should have interfered they didn't having knowledge of situations that could have saved me heartache and pain but they kept those things to themselves anyway. Such as allowing me to be hustled by a crooked family member the other one fully knowing how they were and wouldn't tell me. That was so not right and why we quit speaking mostly because we're blood related. Id have warned somebody hey don't fool with they're a crook. But they let them make a fool out of me. But never again. Maybe its better to be screwed early in life to learn you to be carefully who you can trust idk. But to be hustled by someone I looked upto. And their brother knew they were a crook yet kept it hidden? Yeah thanks alot. They were so bad eventually they were ran out of town. Ripped too many people off and ran. I digress. But still your family should have your back not abandon you when you need them. Or stay silent about things like that knowing somebody is bad that will screw you over. I've had my fill of people like that. I've got more to say but I suppose I better wait for another time somethings are better not always said. But yeah I didn't need people to make fake promises and sabotage my life but they did. Lots let me down and disappointed me. That's probably why I don't expect much from people and have trust issues. Life goes on though if God allows you to live of course. That's about all I guess for now. I mean if you can't trust family who can you trust? People say im crazy. Well just my parents. Yeah sure whatever but that's pot calling kettle black. I don't tell people sh!t like ILL CUT YOUR F*CKING HEAD OFF like my dad did. I don't purposely start fights then play victim like he does. Or be too much of a p*ssy to take my aggressions on others instead of them who im mad at like he's done me. Ok I'll stop because I can go on and on for hours about crap he's done. Abusive name calling and worse things. Well at least every new day can bring good possibilities of life and in life. At least I own thing's I've done. Some people refuse to in my family act like it never happened
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