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I’m a little worried.
I don’t think I’ll ever be ready to be more than friends with anyone. It’s something at night when I’m alone awake in my bed for hours that I have these realisations.
I crave and yearn for something more. But then I remember my impossible habits and idiosyncrasies that inhibit progression.
I’m not really sure when it happened- but somewhere along the way I gained these practices that regulate my relationships.
These practices make it so the idea of touching me sounds horrendous. The instant contact is over I douse my entire body with sanitiser. I feel uncleanly. I feel distraught.
It’s possible the pandemic magnified this. But this was present before hand.
It’s just so crazy. Because a moment before I give up on the idea of having that someone. Who I could cuddle in with at night. I have this overbearing warmth of disgust spread across my body.
And I know it’s silly. How can a person cloth crave and yearn for the touch of something more and yet be so disgusted by the feeling of touch.
Well, can you tell me?
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No. Try talking to a counselor or therapist about this.
ReplyYou may have some unresolved childhood trauma. You may have been taught "it is wrong to be intimate" and you also believe it is true when it is not true.
You can google some proper sex education.
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