An inevitable lie

So I already 1 semester away from when I supposed to graduate and this is the last month where I had to finish everything that I had to do before I graduate, especially my research paper. I already spend so many time to finish this paper and somehow I always got stuck where I have no idea what should I write and everything else. And then when I check on my calendar, eventhough I already finish it today I had to submit it to my lecturer and had to find all things especially the administration.

If I can't finish it till the last day of this month, I had to pay my full tuition where I already said to my mom that I actually already finish everything and she don't need to worry about my tuition. And honestly, back then she also said something about this thing where if I can't finish it this semester, I had to find my own money to pay my tuition where I think it is ridiculous. It might be not that much but still where I can find the money?

I had some idea to borrow the money from some of my friend but the amount of money that I had to borrow is so much that I couldn't imagine how to ask them. If I ask to my relative I had no idea what would they think about myself. I feel underpressure until I had so many complicated feeling where I had to do so many things at once.

I also feel dumb. What have I done within this semester? Why I kept being lazy and just realize that I had to clear this thing now? I can't talk to my family because they already think I already succeed finishing everything but in fact, nope. There's still a couple more things I had to do before I finally graduated.

I had to responsible with my lie where I had to find my own money though. But where? I had some several idea to open donation or something but with my current lie.. I feel there's no way people would want to give it to a liar like me..