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Age regression used to be one of my most frequently used coping mechanisms.
I started out curiously, I wanted to see how subjectable I was to hypnosis. I decided to follow a little space induction. Right after the whole thing I felt like crying happy tears for the first time in forever.
You see, I was in a really tough spot mentally, with each day getting harder and more stressful to the point where I didn’t even want to get out of bed. My days followed the same pattern of going to school, coming home, and then sleeping till the late hours of the night. I skipped almost every meal, I was self-harming periodically but not as regularly as before. I was so lost.
So here I was, with something that brought me the comfort I missed.
When I was a child I didn’t get to enjoy it to the fullest. I had a lot of struggles with my social life, my parents had a messy separation, I was dealing with self-image issues and a feeling of racial inferiority for the first time in my life.
But being able to go back into the mindset of a child and instead of feeling scared and awkward feeling happy? Of course I did more research. Soon I didn’t need hypnosis to slip me into a little space, I could do it on my own. I interacted with others who were the same, made some friends. I thought I could be happy.
But life catches up to you.
I never told anyone in my personal life about it, only those who existed in my tight internet sphere knew that I even indulged in this type of life at all. I began to deny myself the luxury of slipping into my little space after awhile. I was far too busy trying to graduate to allow myself the luxury. I stopped talking to the people who knew, I ingrained myself further into my real life than the persona that existed on the internet.
Sure was I miserable? Yes of course, I still am.
But that space of mine seems to no longer exist. It feels like as time went on, I lost ability to slip at all. I will allow myself to try one last time, with the help of some things that I used in the beginning, but I doubt it’ll work.
So I’m just preemptively saying goodbye to the healthiest coping mechanism I ever had. You served me well.
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