Master Liar

I'm so not ok and no one seems to care enough to notice/

But I've been hiding this/

I want people to know but/

also I don't/

So I can't really blame them/

I've been Faking It to Make It but I still haven't Made It/

I don't want to carry on/

like this/

It hurts so much/

I hate myself/

but I don't want to/

I shouldn't feel like this I have such a good life/

I'm selfish and ungrateful and insecure and guilty/

so I do/

I try my best not to but sometimes I let my feelings get the better of me/

It's so much more easy to be angry and bitter and jealous and envious and anxious and annoyed and lazy/

than to accept myself/

or accept who I'm not/

what I want is not tangible/

I'm not good enough for me/