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oh-how to start. Not sure when my last words will leave my mouth, the last letters I’m writing with my last will or my last typed up text messages I will send but I can’t wait much longer for it.
Today is the day I realised that I had no reason to be born. I know, it sounds pretty cliché but I genuinely know that I shouldn’t be here. I was a really happy kid I believe, I don’t have much memories from it but the ones I have are enough to smile about it. Then, my big brother left the family and left us behind - On this day up until now I tell the world I only have two siblings, not three.
The world has his good sides but there is no place for me to bury myself in. I’m not that happy anymore. I wanted to die in middle school often - I overcame my scars and my mind but 3 years later, I’m writing my farewell letters to my closest ones, not knowing what I’m doing.
I’m lost, I don’t belong anywhere anymore, not even in my own home I feel secured. I realised that my own family is in pain because of me - How can I live like that? - They hate me and wish me to disappear so I will.
I’m a coward, hiding behind hurtful words and a spread smile across my face each and every day. If I’m gone, I won’t be missed much. I don’t know when I do it but I know, the day will come.
so World, let me give you one advice that I can’t use it for myself.
Don’t give up alright? Life can be really beautiful so smile every then and now. It’s fine, you will do well! I love you world but you couldn’t love me back in this life.
3th March 2023
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Stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that you are going through a bad patch and a good patch will follow. Don't care what people think of you. It matters that you accept yourself and think that you are great. Don't put importance on others and do your own thing. If you want to succeed you will.
ReplyHello! It may also sound cliché, but please don't end your life. I think we have a different timeline to realize our worthiness and purpose in this world. Most people around us might not see and recognize our presence, but there are still other people who are willingly to listen and understand us without judging our feelings and words of pain and suffering and I really hope those or that person will come into your life soon. Additionally, you may still try and try to find good reasons to continually live in this world because believe me there are a lot of grounds even if it will produce a small or big impact to your life, but it can still help you to appreciate your existence.
I hope this comment will help you and ease your worries, it is not easy to live in this world, but you know what? We have a lot of motivations to keep it up and that is why we are still alive up until now and I kindly expect that you will choose to continue to progress.
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