I'm losing my mind, I don't know anymore

I'm 23 and I feel like I'm still young. I feel the burning passion, I could see the dream life I wanted. Am I young for thinking that I still want to feel love and attention from my family? (If there ever was any to begin with). Can I still be a youth playing outside till the sun goes down? I want to look normal for needing a break from all the responsibilities I have. I want to feel young and not lose my mind over the years yet to come. Am I still young for losing sight of why I exist and what my purpose is?

I'm just 23 yet I feel like I want this to be my last year. I know I should finish college properly and look for financial stability. But am I mature for holding back my thoughts and feelings? Am I growing up by realizing that this is the real world? I want to grow up knowing that I just have to take slow and steady steps towards the future. I want to let go of my regrets and be grateful of what I've become and what I have in life/

I don't know. I guess I'm a young adult overthinking life to the point that I'm losing my mind or an adult-to-be who just can't accept reality.