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The thing is, if I were to believe in myself I would have to be sure. But I find myself in sticky situations, like my eyes lose sight sometimes and I'm thinking thinking thinking how to move on. If I keep going and never look back, what would that be like? It's easy if you try I guess, but somewhere in the road I became so reluctant to trying anymore. If you try once, that's enough; if you try again, then would that be like giving up? (pause, I know this sounds crazy but this is how my mind is). Sometimes I find myself figuring stuff out in my head, and recently I had to go through a heartbreak and that reminded me of how bad it is; how there are things that are next to impossible to fix, how we need to HEAL and let TIME PASS. And I like, start to care about everybody's problems because when I'm having a problem or problems I become empathic with other people. And I never want to forget that, I never want to forget that there are things that are out of our control and that some people struggle a lot; I want to think of everyone having a fair life, even though that's not true right now. The point of this post, I don't know if I believe in myself. I'm not one hundred percent sure, I find myself in sticky situations that are hard to control; technology failing on me, a bird poop in my head, sliding when there's water on the ground, etc. Small accidents that make me feel stuck. Life is never what you think it out to be. I wish I could say everything is fine. I guess it's stress. The fear of people judging you if you don't move along with life. All these things, make me doubt myself. I wonder why I can't keep going or feel left behind sometimes. It's like I'm caught in the middle. The balance is hard to find, I feel like I'd lose my mind trying to find it. At the end of the day, life's just life. I always feel like I need to do it by myself, or otherwise it doesn't count. I think I have OCD, and the weird thing is I have some thoughts that are OCD related that are like that "I have to do it by myself", etc; so I constantly get reminded of those impure thoughts without my permission. I want to feel at any moment I'm in control of life, but that's wishful thinking. I'm holding on too much weight, I wish I knew something was right, so I'll dive jump straight into it. But I'm left with uncertainty, fears, doubts, insecurities and not believing in myself. Some things will never change, like 2Pac used to say.
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“Happiness and freedom begin with a clear understanding of one principle: Some things are within our control, and some things are not. It is only after you have faced up to this fundamental rule and learned to distinguish between what you can and can’t control that inner tranquility and outer effectiveness become possible.” - Epictetus, The Art of Living
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