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im slowly losing all of my friends. and ot hurts. i didn't have any friends until last year. except for my bestfriend, who lives in a different city altogether. she doesn't even have a phone cause she lives in hostel so she ain't allowed. so except for her, i didnt have any friends, all my life. but i made two, last year. initially, i was so happy that i did. we were the best trio. two of us are introverts and one is extrovert. everything was perfect.
but 2 months back, one of them REALLY hurt me. but i did try to forget. she told things which weren't to be told to someone. and she clearly lied about it. i wish she didnt lie atleast. partly because of what she did, my relations with other people got worse. i cant blame her totally, because i shouldn't have trusted her. till date, she doesn't know that ik. ig we are good now but i just cant forget it. and then another instance with her, we were about to have a celebration in our school, so i wrote a vote of thanks speech. because i was about to deliver it. it may not seem a big deal to anybody ok? but it was to me. seriously. tho i am introverted, i hate talking to people and all, but i LOVE public speaking. but i havent been speaking anything since 2-3 years and it was my chance this time. but after she saw my speech, she insisted that she'll speak the v.o.t. i couldn't say anything. these two incidents happened 2 months back. now we're good. because i totally distanced myself from them. i dont want to. but i cant just stay there. what are we even friends for if we cant trust one another.
now about the other girl. i really liked her. from the very beginning. but it never seemed that she liked me. let alone think of me as a friend. i feel like she hates me. she thinks that i copy her. I DONT. but how do i tell her? because she never said that to me directly. she always posts about this girl who copies her. but can her outdo her. ALWAYS. and i feel really bad seeing those. and why does she think this way? because i like lana del rey. she doesn't realise that ive been listening to lana even before she started posting about her. plus im not even as big of a fan like she is. i just like some of her songs. she thinks im copying everything she does. im not. seriously. id stop doing anything she tells me to. i just dont want to be hated.
i never was close with her ig. we all had fun together. but i never spoke about my feelings. nor did she ig. she has friends. she loves them, they love her.
and the other friend i told u about, she does have friends too. lots. and i seriously dont have anyone to even talk to.
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