I'm tired of wishing for you to hurt like I do...

I struggle to say I forgive you, but I don't necessarily hold a grudge either. I'd say I wish you well, but that's not quite it. I think I just want you to live. Live fully. You did a lot to hurt me back then, and I'd be lying if I said I was over it. But I guess I just don't want you to torment yourself with it like I do. I hope you live. I hope you live the good moments. And I hope you live the bad moments. I hope you feel joy and love, but also sorrow and pain. I hope your life has many ups. I hope it has just as many downs. I hope you learn a lot. I hope you learn loss. And I hope you learn graditude. I hope you learn how to be a friend. I hope you learn how to have one. If you took anything from our wreck of a friendship, anything from my pain, I hope it was leading to that. I hope you never remain the type of friend that you were to me. I hope that in living, you change and grow. I hope that you never remain the same.