Just How I'm Feeling

I feel like everything in my life is right but wrong at the same time

I feel like love from my family is conditional

I feel like if I'm not exactly how they want, I am cast away

I feel like breaking away from everything, just dropping off the face of the earth

I feel like my mom caters to my sister more than she will ever care about my feelings

Because my sister makes a bigger deal about how she feels

I feel like my mom will always find a reason I am doing something wrong

I feel like I am the one who everyone goes to for help

Because I am the one who no one can help

Because I'm quiet

I'm quiet because

It feels like everything I struggle with is stuff my family casts me away for

I've tried, and I was instantly dismissed when talking about my problems

Also you did the things that broke me for years

But then told me that I'd recover from my disordered eating on my own just fine

It took me years

But guess what? I basically did that

For me