Alone.

Why do I always end up alone?

Just a cruel laugh and I'm on my own,

No warning came, no sign, no no wave not even a goodbye,

To loud they say, annoying they said,

My, fault, they said, I hope you end up dead,

They said,

Like a siren that refuses too sing,

Everyone repeats the exact same thing,

Excuses to leave,

Excuses too leave me alone,

So I walk back home, no one at my side,

Such a sad sad lonely life

But home is a fight, and i always lose,

Home is the worst, and only thing I can choose,

I cry, tears of gold in my room,

But cry too loud and it is my doom,

'I'll give you a reason to cry' They yell, they shout,

I try anything thing to stop the wails coming from my mouth,

So to stop the hurt in my head I hurt myself,

Accept the fact that home won't help,

Blood kill the blade, bruises stain my skin,

I hurt the outside to soothe the pain within,

Actions speak louder than words but the voices are still screaming,

To continue to live is to live without meaning,

Leave me alone I shout, but i just want them too stay,

The sun may set but for me there is no new day,

The cycle repeats and there is no end,

The cracks will not heal no matter how much you try to mend,

Alone, such a simple word yet so impactful,

A short word, yet so meaningful,

To describe something as alone is a curse of binding,

A way out that there is no hope of finding,

So am I alone? The question is clear,

But the answer just never seems to near,

Shut up I yell I scream I beg,

I cut and slice away at my leg,

Too loud I cry, Stop talking, I said,

At this point I'd be better off dead,

Descend into my mind you are paid to care,

I will pick and choose what I want to share,

All my life never in control,

Embraced by arms that were just too cold,

The love was fake, it was never real,

I still don't get too pick what I want too feel,

I cry for help and you ignored,

You go on with life, pretend you never saw,

I curse those who chose to turn a blind eye,

You may cover up my suffering with some obvious lie,

But trust my word when I saw,

You shall forever rue the day,

You left my in my broken home,

You will forever rue the day,

You left me alone.