Pop

I often worry that I will not have accomplished all of the things in life that would make my father (Pop) over-joyed and so proud. I am scared I will fall short, and he will miss certain milestones in my life. This haunts me daily. I want to be better. I want to be great. I want to be the very, or one of the very best at something. I want to do the very best things I can do for other people. I just cannot seem to get around the thought that there is nothing I can do in my own head that could possibly make me worthy of being proud of. I will never be able to buy my father a home or retire him for good. I am insufficient. Please do not take this writing as fishing for pity, I simply had this to say that I wanted to say to someone.....as no one, of that I am sure.