What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
There is a part of me that desperately wants to be liked, that desperately wants attention from everyone and when I don’t get it, I feel awful, inferior, rejected and just overall really hurt. I guess I have always wanted to feel belonged in a community, be well-liked and favoured, I have always wanted to be someone’s favourite. I just wanted to be appreciated, worth the time to talk to, be someone who is valuable to somebody, not replaceable and not someone who can be thrown out. I just wanted to matter, feel like I exist, and feel needed. That’s all. I understand that I need to love myself in order to see that I am worth it but seriously, when you’ve been through so much crap, there’s only so much you can hope for. When you’ve been through IMMENSE SHIT ONLY THEN would you realise how upset it has made me to be socially rejected. Rejected by my peers for simply being ME. It really hurts, I hate abandonment and I hate people who don’t try to understand me. I hate superficial conversations and matters—I matter. And it’s about time I find people who believe that too.
If you see a comment that is unsupportive or unfriendly, please report it using the flag button.
More Posts
-
work
So, heres the thing. I dont know if im really becoming a sensitive person as days goes by cause i got irritated so easly this days. We have this patient who...
-
upset days
So, having this collegue of mine is nice, but oneday she got a problem about her water source. This informant came at our clinic to tell us that they gonna cut...
I hate it, and for years I thrived on the idea of hate and jealousy because I wasn't valued. I genuinely hated people because they had seemingly better lives than me, and I contemplated suicide every day because I was invisible. I do think validation by others is a very important thing in life, however I don't think aggression is the way to go for being valued, but rather a moment of vulnerability to the very few that you hold dear. A moment of mutual vulnerability on both ends, and if that vulnerability isn't possible when it's expressed to you, then no one wants to be vulnerable. From what I see, "I hate abandonment and I hate people who don’t try to understand me". You matter, but so do they in their own worlds, and if you don't give them that real moment of vulnerability, then you may expect the same sadly
ReplyI like that you ended that on a positive note, looking toward the future. It can be so hard to find people like that, but we’re out here. I always hear people say that you’d be surprised at how much you already mean to at least one other person, but I don’t know your particulars – and I don’t think this site has a way to continue a conversation so I can’t ask what you’ve gone through or what aspects of yourself mean the most when you think about the person you are when you're "simply being me" (but I’d like to know!). I’m truly sorry you’re experiencing rejection, those feelings cut deep and take a while to overcome. Just be nice to yourself, and don’t feel like you’re in a hurry to be okay. It just happens somewhere along the way.
Reply