The Day I Lost Everything

Grieving is something almost everybody has to deal with, though it’s not always present in the same way. I personally think it depends on the reason you’re grieving in the first place, but whether it’s because you lost something or someone you know passed away you still have every right to grieve. so i’m going to tell you why i’ve been grieving for the past 4 years and will probably be grieving for the rest of my life.

“Emma you’re being signed out.” Says my teacher as she was walking over to me. Now I know usually kids in the fifth grade get excited to be signed out but i had a horrible feeling about it. I started up the hall to the office when I seen my forth grade teacher. I walked up to her and gave her the tightest hug because i knew whatever the reason was for me being signed out was not good.

I noticed tears on my aunts face as soon as i could see her and that alone confirmed my bad feeling. As i reached her i kept begging her to tell me what was wrong but all she would say was, “Wait until we get in the car Emma.” Once our car was in sight I quickly picked up on what was wrong. I got in the car and said, “Where is daddy?” Everyone turned to look at me sobbing even harder as if i had just said something very rude.

My family explained to me that my father died from an overdose and that they did everything they could. I was angry. I couldn’t believe he would break his promise and relapse. I couldn’t believe they waited so long to tell me, And then it hit me. I can’t believe he’s dead. My dad is dead. I lost my best friend, my biggest supporter, my absolute everything. This can’t be happening he is supposed to be here with me. How do I go on without him?

Five days later we had his funeral. I put a multi pages letter in his casket that had all my deepest secrets wrote on it. Having his funeral made everything so real. It made me realize that this was not a joke. he wouldn’t be coming back this time. He would forever just be looking down on me. i miss everything about my dad. I miss his voice, I miss his bear hugs, but above all I miss having a dad.

We can’t escape grief no matter what. One day it will hit you out of no where and you won’t know what to do. If you need help there is always someone who will listen to you. Grief is hard but you can survive it, i promise. I don’t break my promises.