I'm done with everything

For all the good I do it don't amount to shit. They may as will kill me or I may as well not go on living. Mom and dad come in on me dad starting his aggressive shit demanding my medication and when I refuse he turns into a raging gorilla and mom can do is tell me to shut up when I'm just defending myself when he started the shit in the first place. I meant this in all caps. He calls me crazy and stupid because you can't just expect me to hand over my bottle of meds to him with how he abuses his own/street ones. And OF FOR ITS MY FAULT ANDREA MOM COMES AGAINST ME TOO

just no more ok I just want to not exist anymore. I tell them I'm not the enemy here. If they hate me that much why don't they just go ahead and kill me. FML I just fucking give it don't pay to even be alive.

They want to use me to this that n the other for them then once the needis gone I'm basically like a discarded wrapper. And have the audacity to call me crazy for merely defending myself. And slandered and talked down to when I won't do as they want and mom damn well knows he starts the shit yet still backs him up. He's been on his meds for ages there's 0 excuse for him running out he abuses them he's a psychotic abusive person. I pray they'd understand how this feels to be me. Many days they make me not want to live. Just kill me n be done with the suffering. I knew I felt negative energy in our place while they were gone. As kids says "it ain't a crime to take up for yourself" only thing is I get labeled the enemy after he starts shit with me. They know I BOTHER "ABSOLUTELY NOBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Even my grandmother said I was a good kid when she was alive I gave her 0 trouble. FML I give up its just not worth going on anymore. Mom would Rather defend a psychotic drug addicted verbal emotional And past physical abuser over me. And you jsge audacity to talk about religion after how you treat me? That's fine im not perfect but I don't abisw my family.

Literally they're emotionally and mentally unstable they build up misery frustration then take it all out on me. What if this scape goat is no longer around then what you all gonna do? Dear God I've suffered enough. You don't want throwed out of here huh mom that's all you can yell? 0 comforting 0 I'm sorrys just heated yelling is all I get from them. Ok you don't want kicked out Then stop your drug abusing man from starting shit with me mother. I hope both of you one day understand what it is know what I'm put thru.